My biggest fear is getting closer to where I started all over again. Being back at that big number. Being ashamed and halting life because I didn’t feel good in my own skin. Staying in, not living but dying.
With the way I’ve been eating recently, this is what it feels like- I’m too afraid to do a starting weigh-in; the shame will be unbearable once more; I am back to old habits- daily ordering, junk entering my body without processing, letting food succumb me. This is the disgusting kind of Lexy. The Lexy I never wanted to be.
Beginning today should have been the objective, but I failed due to lack of preparation. Tomorrow we begin truly, and there is nothing but to simply do it. No overthinking it; just consume Opti the same way you’ve been consuming junk food. You take that leap.
Canada is coming so so soon, this is all the time you have. You will not go to Canada feeling this way. You will not be ashamed to go out and live your life, and have photos taken of yourself in beautiful places. You’ve got exactly five months. Three months of intensive, to get to your best desired weight; then one month of active two, and another month of active one. You begin maintenance when you fly. And you’ll work out and walk like hell. Start walking now. Build your endurance and resistance. Grow through this journey and get ready for what’s to come.
Let your near future inspire you. Leap, Lexy. Shed your old skin and build this new one. Build your dream.
Lexy's Journey to 130 